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When I am really at my wit’s end with a subject, situation, person, or plan, it becomes abundantly obvious that I am too involved and God (or Good) is not involved enough. Currently, I am going through a stressful situation and the resolution is totally out of my hands. I have done everything I can (and then some), I’m tired, and I just can’t do any more on the topic. I have run out of free will.
It’s actually kind of a nice place to be, like at the finish line of a long race or at the end of a big project. It’s out of my hands. I did all I can. And that is when Good (or God) steps in to put all the pieces together and see it through to its impact, conclusion, or manifestation in my life. I can rest easy knowing I was an active, spiritual participant but it is NOT all on me. At all.
What a BLEEPING relief.
I literally have to just let go and see what happens. Once I get past the struggle of thinking Surely there must be something more than I can do! and just get good with time, grace, and seeing what happens, it feels very restful.
Sometimes, I get confused about the role prayer plays in our lives. I forget it’s basically the energetic connection to Good (or God). It is the act of prayer that creates action in our lives. If we’re not actively praying and communicating with God (or Good) about our hopes, dreams, fears, and plans, we’re not going to see a lot of action on the physical plane.
(As an aside, I just used some variation of the word “action” four times in that paragraph… for Good reason).
I believe that because I believe Good (or God) is an energy source and attitude, more than it is a grumpy, bearded wizard humanity fashioned after itself. That’s been as far as I can take my faith, but it is WORKING, so I’m just going to keep riding this train and talking about it. If it has helped me, it may help you, too, Dear Reader, and that is all that matters to me.
When times are tough, I pray more, no question. And I get all kinds of signs, solutions, options, opportunities, and remedies. I get new ideas, support, change, resolutions, and disruptions in my life. It’s not always easy, nor is it straightforward, but it feels much less burdensome than the negative, worry-filled cycle of spinning my cerebral wheels which came before it.
Yesterday and today, I prayed for a miracle to solve a long-standing problem in my life. I’ve never prayed for one before, probably because I didn’t believe in them and/or I didn’t realize they were even an option. Now, I have enough faith to actually make that kind of request, both because I believe in them and I feel worthy of them.
You’re along for this ride and it’s an important one, so I will be sure to report back on what unfolds. Part of faith is the wait, which is hard for faithless creatures, but integral to the process.
We shall see. Feel free to pray for me.