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Sometimes, it’s right in front of us… and I imagine the most enlightened of us all would say it’s always right in front of us. Today, I was driving around worrying my BLEEP off. I was embroiled in internal conflict, imagining mistakes I hadn’t made, envisioning family conflicts yet to be had, festering over previous hardships or criticisms aimed at me or decisions I made to protect myself. I made sure to pray and say some affirmations, no question, but sometimes fear and worry are potent. I had to keep the faith despite some pretty powerful physiological stress.

Then I realized I had also spent the morning listening to Dr. Wayne W. Dyer and Deepak Chopra talking about How to Get What You Really, Really, Really, Really Want, which is a recorded event these two men shared. The recording was then made into an audio book on Audible, and I highly recommend it.

Yesterday, I randomly felt compelled to turn it on to listen to it again after not hearing it in many months, perhaps almost a year. And today in the recording, I was listening to Dyer talking about how those must attuned to the spiritual world also have to let go of the “good opinion of others” and follow their will and intention, no matter who judges them or what other people think.

Meanwhile, I had been spending the morning making myself sick over the good opinion of others and praying for guidance and relief from my despair. It took me several hours to realize God (or Good) was already giving me guidance, I had been actively listening to it, and still it had not occurred to me to apply it to the matter at hand.

Sometimes, I wonder if God is up in Heaven (or whatever plane Good is operating from) and looking around for a brick to throw at me. That’s often what it takes for me to put two and two together.

I love my spiritual path. It does wonders for me, literally. It has enriched my life and given me opportunities to dream I never thought possible. But it’s not always easy and it’s not always obvious, even when it should be.