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Two months into this endeavor and I feel like it’s time to up the ante a little bit. Call me crazy, but now that I have a bit of faith under my belt and so many interesting, productive, and wonderful things have happened, I figure it’s time to test myself and my faith a little bit, because why the BLEEP not?! (you can go ahead and start praying for me now, thanks).
I’ve decided to double-down on my commitment to faith and really spend as much time as possible totally thoughtless. I’ve written before about the state of flow and that it feels a little bit like just walkin’ around, lookin’ around. I’ve dabbled in it a bit, but I regularly forget to do it, why I’m doing it, or what the baseline objectives are in attempting to be totally thoughtless throughout the day.
Don’t get me wrong, I have to get my work done. I have to think clearly and well enough to write this blog, too. But beyond that, I think it’s time for me to just wander around like the absent-minded professor, running into life like he runs into parking meters and accidentally solves crimes (I’ve never watched the show - or is it a movie?).
My best guess is that life is a lot better and I will cause a lot fewer problems for myself if I just stop thinking all together. It’s not that I don’t have useful or creative things to say, but I think anyone who has childhood trauma or been through some BLEEP spend a fair amount of time running from life and/or meddling in some way. Lord knows I do.
But now, I genuinely believe that God (or Good) actually has a pretty good handle on things in my life. Therefore, it seems like a good time for me to start practicing getting out of my own way. It’s time to start letting God handle even more of my life, because, honestly, in the past 60 days, the Universe has proven itself to be far more capable of managing my life than I have been in the last 40 plus years.
I’m sure I will have some false starts. BLEEP, later today I will probably catch myself mulling over the past, the future, and what to do about x, y, or z. That doesn’t matter. I’m committed to doing less and letting God do more. It will be an interesting exercise, no question, and I look forward to providing a full report as it all unfolds.
Praying for me yet? You better be.